Ben, Missing Pullman, real life and a white flag

I need to be better about updating Ben's life. It tends to be separate than ours much of the time! Ben has visited four different school for residencies - Purdue (West Lafayette, Indiana), Iowa (Ames, IA), Colorado (Fort Collins), and North Carolina (Raleigh). He liked different aspects of all of them. The application process uses the match program, the same as medical school. 

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Raise the white flag. Three kids is not the same as two. It's hard. Or is it the same? Maybe it's because I went grocery shopping today. Babies are just a hard phase of life. And I have an easy one. Is it that way for everyone? I keep thinking maybe I could have done this in Pullman where ten different friends were one step away in the same boat. I finally unsubscribed from my old ward google group tonight (can I say some of the comments I would see pop up were really interesting so it was kind of informational/funny) and I cried. It was like it was the last thing I was holding on to. I still miss everyone.

In the real world, so I'm told, and I'm learning, people don't hang out every day or have playdates on a whim. You schedule them into your busy life a couple days out and get ready and clean your house. I do need to adjust to real life but I'm going down kicking and screaming. And we're still not in real life either...somewhere in between... I fully support Ben, love this journey we're on (most days) and I am so glad we're doing this. If my husband is going to be the one working, I want him to LOVE it. It's just the road less traveled for a reason.